My spidey senses are tingling, there’s a disturbance in the force. Something is wrong.

All day I’ve been plagued with a deep sense of foreboding. This isn’t the first time this has happened to me. Several times in the past I’ve felt uneasy for no apparent reason and then found that something was wrong. I don’t know what it is but I can tell something’s up somewhere. I’m probing my mind trying to find anything to connect this to. But I’m drawing a blank. There’s a disturbance in the force, and I can feel it. I’m not like psychic or anything, I just know something’s up. I don’t know if this happens to anyone else, or if anyone has any idea what it is that I’m sensing, but if you know what’s up please let me know. It’s irritating me to no end. I really don’t know how to describe this feeling. And I haven’t been inspired to blog all week. Though there have been times that I’ve thought “Dude, I should totally blog this” I’ve been like blocked or something. So now, though I’m completely lacking in the area of creative content and inspiration, I’m blogging anyway. Maybe by blogging I’ll search my mind enough to figure out what’s freaking me out. Oh wait, I have an idea…

I have often thought about blogging about, well, my blog. More specifically about what my blog is. Many have described a blog as an online public diary. I think that sounds weird. If I still had a diary then I wouldn’t want you reading it. And the reason I keep a blog rather than a diary is because a blog keeps me firmly footed in reality. In a diary I could go off and fantasize and turn a passing feeling into some sickening 10 page testament to my own stupidity. But here I write reality. Mostly. So anyway, back to what my blog is. It’s not a diary. And though I often use it to write down what’s been happening lately, it’s not just a means of recording events either. My blog is the key to my mind. And not just for you, but for me also. Through reading my blog you could potentially get to know me sickeningly well. If you could pick up on every innuendo, veiled threat, hidden joke and insult in my blog, and get both sides of all my double meanings then you would know my whole story. Because what I write here is exactly what goes on in my mind. One reason why I like blogging so much is that if I’m having a problem and need to think then blogging causes me to probe my whole brain, not just the 1% I normally use. So I find the most interested things, some disturbing, some funny, all fascinating. So now you know, you are not just reading some slightly eccentric writings of mine, you are reading the deepest depths of the darkest corners of my eccentric mind. I hope you find it interesting.

So, what to blog about…I need more. I don’t know why, but this feeling persists, and now it’s joined by another feeling, I need to keep blogging until I hit something good. Well I’ll tell you some of what’s been going on lately. Yesterday (Saturday) Anneli, Evelin, Priit and I stuck my N64, 4 controllers, 007: GoldenEye, Perfect Dark and a Power Converter in my backpack and brought it to the corps and spent 4 hours shooting each other into oblivion. It was loads of fun, especially for me. The biggest reason I got an N64 was to play with my friends, and I love playing with my friends because I almost always win. I don’t know why I’ve always been so good with video games, I just always have been. So, much to the irritation of my friends, even when they teamed up, 3 on 1, I still won by a wide margin. So I had a great time. Mindless slaughter brings me great joy. Then after that Anneli, Priit and I hit the town to take even more cool pictures. By the way, last Sunday Anneli, Evelin and I took tons of pictures in Old Town, 597 to be exact, and all of them are on FaceBook if you want to check them out. And by the way, if you’re not my friend on FaceBook, or not a part of my “The Chronicles of Chris” fan club on FaceBook, then you should become my friend and join my group.

And speaking of FaceBook…Lent is coming, the goose is getting fat. And because it is customary to give up something for lent, I will too. I thought about a lot of things to give up. Video games? No, I don’t play them that much anymore anyway. All electronics (TV, Computer, Video games, MP3 player)? No way could I survive that. Sex? Well, the thing about that is that giving it up wouldn’t really be a sacrifice because you can’t give up what you don’t have. So I decided to give up FaceBook. It’s actually a bigger sacrifice than you might think, and I spend far too much time on it every day. So I can take that time and use it for bible reading, and prayer and schoolwork. 3 things I need a million times more than FaceBook. So throughout lent if you want to contact me, and would normally do so through FaceBook, than please E-mail me (chrisjohnclark@juno.com) or comment on my blog, because I’ll keep blogging and doing E-mail, but no more FaceBook.

So now I’m stuck once again, and don’t know what to say. I probably won’t be posting this post tonight, so if I get a brainwave I can blog. But now I need to go fight the ninja assassin that thinks I haven’t sensed his presence all day. Let’s see how he likes me beating him in a game of 007…


P.S. I still sense a disturbance, if any of you really did get attacked by ninjas today let me know.