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my life, just got turned upside down, shot with several million rounds from a machine gun, and then torn to pieces by wild animals, and THEN cut into even smaller peices by a katana. now you might be there saying "oh my god, chris finally snapped", but i didn't snap. yesterday i come back from english camp i'm happy i'm exuasted, everything seemed good in the world. and one of the first things i hear when i walk through the door is that my grandmothers in the hospital. shes dieing from a brain tumor and so i thought "of course shes in the hospital", but i didn't get it. so this morning i wake up and, BAM!!!!! my grandmothers dead!!!! GOD!!!!!! WHATS WITH THIS!!!! FIRST WE GET SETTLED IN, ALL OUR STUFF GETS STOLEN, THEN WE SETTLE IN AGAIN, MY GRANDMOTHER DIES...cursed. this is just to much. i guess you could say we must be stepping on the devil's tail but you can't blame everything on the devil. so now i have a choice, go for 3 weeks or stay. for some people this is a no-brainer. but i want to stay, i love estonia. everyone looks at me funny when i say it but i prefer estonia. and also i'm gonna feel depressed enough without everyone around me screaming and crying. maybe this will be good. but i want to stay. i'm not physically or mentally up to a 3 week time in america. so i might stay here with kuldar (a guy who usually stays in our house when we go somewhere) abnd just chill. i can do school, hang out, go to tallinn and chill with friends...it has potential to be great. any way i need to be at the opening, i've invited so many people people will expect me to be there. by the way thats tommorow, 2:00 (14:00) at raekoja plats, 3:00 (15:00) at the illusioon. but right now, i'm gonna try to shove down some food. even though thanks to this whole thing my apetite is dead, i'm gonna need to eat. well anyway, just sorta pray for me or whatever. and DON'T YOU DARE LET THIS GET YOU DEPRESSED!!!!!! if you get depressed cuz of me i will not be happy with you so lets end this on a happy note.

i had a wonderful time at english camp!! it was so awesome. i wish english camp type stuff lasted forever. and i spent time with people, actually a lot of time. so it was great. and i had written a huge happy thing about english camp but blogger seems a little unstable and deleted it. so i'll write more later. Cya.