Hey! I'm still alive?

Dude! i know you all thought i was dead. and i know you already bought the chips for the "ding-dong-the-chris-is-dead" party but hey, like i care about that. eat the chips while you read this new post. or send them to me and i'll eat them as i write a post about your genorousity. anyway, to your left there is a little "Pearls Before Swine" comic my dad sent me that i thought all one of you would enjoy. seriously. Maret, i know you're the only person who reads my blog and you just comment under a bunch of different names to make me feel good. that would be funny. anyway, Mr. "The Champ", i have seriously considered war college. but if you or Andy Mac are there i refuse to even come to Canada. just kidding, i miss you guys. so yeah, what inspired me to write a post right now? well mostly the fact that i wanted to get out of "real" work. so instead of doing schoolwork i am blogging and listening to Evanescence(ever heard their song "Eternal"? Beautiful...love it...7 mins long) and Breaking Benjamin, i have a recently come to quite like.

Anyway, today there is something annoying me. do you know what that something is? no? do you want to know? no? can you say anything besides no? no? you wanna do the funky chicken dance? "i don't wanna be a chicken, i don't wanna be a duck so kiss my butt, doo doo doo...." okay. anyway, back to what i was saying. what's annoying me is...ME! i suck! see, there i go again! i'm pessimistic! i'm not normally pessimistic it's just one very simple thing that makes me go from happy-go-lucky to chronic depression. school. i am most completely convinced i am an utter and total idiot. well, not completely. i mean i believe i can write. that's why i have this blog. i believe i am witty and what you might call "wise". and now i'm bragging. but i am most definitely not "smart". all my life, exept 4th grade, i have been homeschooled. and therefore i feel that i must have missed out on HUGE stuff that i need for life on planet earth. i mean when people younger than me are talking about what they're doing in school and i'm just going "HUH?" then that's bad, in my opinion. i'm clueless! oh so clueless! and that annoys me. and now i'm 16 and i'm looking into college and university and i'm going "yeah right, they'd take one look at me and go 'this idiot? you want US to put HIM in OUR college? he's a absolute IDIOT!!' yes sir, maybe this idiot is interested in higher education. ohhh, big word."

anyway, i know i am not alone among my homeschooling brethren. others feel the same! yay! Joshua Harris, who has written some cool books, was also a homeschooler and here's a quote from his site about how HE sometimes felt.

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And incidentally, the friends he had at church who went to public school, all seemed really sharp. They seemed to know about a lot of things that Josh had never even heard of, let alone studied. There was quite a strong possibility that Josh was being deprived of a decent education. What if he went to college someday, and found out that he didn’t really know anything that he was supposed to know! What if there was some vital school subject that his parents had simply forgotten to cover?! He could just hear it now, he’d be sitting in the admissions office at the college, and the counselor would come in and say, "Sorry, Mr. Harris, but it seems that you completely flunked Molecular Division on your entrance test! Evidently, you never did any extensive studies on this subject. It was part of the public school students’ curriculum all throughout 9-12 grade, because it is a basic requirement for nearly every reputable university. Too bad, Mr. Harris, maybe you can try and get enrolled at a Home-school Academy! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"
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so anyway, i'm quite sure i would fail molecular division. i suck at normal numbers division. i would say that's my weakest point. math. oh, how i hate you. math, the ultimate evil. cursed are you, evil of evils, MATH! anyway, you get the point. so why i was thinking about this today is because i had a huge pile of college stuff that was getting on my nerves so i decided to sort through it and have fun BURNING THE REJECTS! i actually am not sure i'll burn them, but i'll probably horribly mutilate them. they just bug me to look at them. anyway, i just wanted to get all that out. another thing. i'm also coming to like the song "rockin' the suburbs" by ben folds. and believe me, "y'all don't know what it's like/bein' male, middle class and white" i'm thinking or rewriting the song for my blog to have it say "i'm rockin' your computers/just like bill gates did/i'm rockin' your computers/only he he was talented" so yeah, i'm going into the realm of rambling now so...BLAH! i just don't want to stop blogging! but i can't think of anything more to write about. oh wait, happy birthday to my dad! his birthday was friday the 8th! aren't i a loser son? i didn't even blog about it. but yeah, i gotta go baby sit and do other junk now, so Cya all later!