Saturday, January 07, 2006

"...I tried so hard, and got so far. But in the end it doesn't even matter..."

DOOM...DESPAIR...DESTRUCTION...DISAPOINTMENT...REALLY DEPRESSING WORDS THAT ALL START WITH "D"...yada-yada-yada, etc. etc. so on and so forth and all that funkiness. is anybody wondering why i'm starting off this post with such depressing words? well i'm not quite sure, but what i want to know is this: why do so many depressing words start with "D"? actually wait, let me correct myself, i believe i just made a quick slip in truthfullness there, i DO know why i started the post off this way, let me start with a story. once upon a time i was very behind on schoolwork, like i am now and am sure to be again in the future, and i made a goal for myself. i said "by the time i turn 16 i will be completely caught up on schoolwork". now yesterday was a very good day, i laid around, watched star wars episodes V and VI (not for any real reason except that i love star wars), and i blogged. and i did something i normally don't do, ever. i *thought* i got caught up on all my schoolwork, actually i thought i was a bit ahead. all in all, a very good day. i went to bed that night thinking "tommorow will be the first saturday in months where i will do nothing except blog, watch TV, play video games and chat on MSN, because i am caught up on schoolwork". this morning, a cold, dark, evil morning i woke up still planning on doing absolutely nothing but when my mom came to check that i really was caught up with my school work she did what she always does, pointed out that i'm still much more behind then i ever knew was physically possible. so today i have spent the whole day working on school work. except for when i was watching my little brother chew up and spit out the cookie i gave him, which is of course much more entertaining than TV or video games. i found out that to be since i have a nice christian homeschooling curriculim (despite the fact that i still think anybody who would design this curriculim with so much work to do must be horribly evil) i had to read the books of John, Acts, and Romans from the bible in about 36 hours, that along with even more reading and then writing a few papers. doesn't that sound fun? and i thought i was done with school work for at this weekend...can't you understand how slightly dissapointing that is? come on! sympathize with me! what ever, i know when silence translates into "it's your own fault for not staying caught up" so BLAGH!!! Ha, i "blaghed" you, gotcha now.

well anyway why i'm blogging now despite that fact that i have tons of work to do is partly because i'm lazy and will avoid work until the last second and also because i'm rewarding myself, i just finished reading John! isn't that cool? come on now, you can praise me for my great reading abilities, it won't hurt you. *cricket* *cricket* or maybe it will, what ever. but anyway just so this doesn't all sound so depressing i want to write about seomthing cool i found while i was reading, and of course since i say it's cool, and especially because it's from the best selling, most popular, coolest book ever written you know it's gonna be good. if you have a bible handy bust it out and flip to John 12:25. in my version (NLT) it says "Those who love their life in this world wil lose it. Those who despise their in this world will keep it for eternal life." now for me as a missionary kids i've only heard this verse about ten million times, it's pretty well quoted, but it's never been quoted by me before and i just wanted to throw out what i think of it. i really like this verse because it tottally works for me. as you might have noticed from the first half off this post i don't exactly love everything in my life, schoolwork most of all. i have many times thought about how nice it would be to be dead. not in a suicidal way but just it seems to me i'll be dead sometime in the next 80 years so why can't God just hurry it up and push me in front of a bus? i'm just kidding, i know the whole "God's got a plan for your life" thing, i got that down. but life isn't easy and i am looking forward to getting into heaven, because it just sounds like the coolest party i've ever heard of ;-) so this makes things sound pretty cool for me. i don't love my life on earth, it's ok but heaven sounds better. but just for a minute think about this verse. yeah you. no really, i'm talking to YOU. think about your life, think about this verse, are you loving your life a bit too much? think about it.

well anyway i just want to shout out "Hi" or two, most likely two, not three. or probably not three, i doubt it because like king arthur i can't count that high* first of all i want to say a big old fashioned "Hi" or "Tere" or even "Priviet" if your into that type of thing to my friend Kristi. Kristi recently left estonia to work in hawaia (talk about from one extreme to the other) and i just want to her you know that all us losers freezing our butts of in estonia while she's probably in a T-shirt, miss her. we miss you Kristi! and next i want to say a big american "Yo" if if you want "Joo" works too, but please don't ask me to do russian, to my friend Megan, no, not Meaghan Wittenberg, but Megan. i'm gonna let you all in on a little secret, i don't know her. i've never met her. but somehow, through this crazy thing called the "internet" (which i always thought was the netting on the inside of a guy's bathing suit ;-)) stumbled across my blog, and so when i have a few free seconds i check out her blog, and apperently she reads mine despite the fact i keep dissapearing for a few weeks every now and then. she says me being *almost* 16 makes her feel old, i think me being older than 10 makes me feel pretty old too. so just saying "Hi".

and now that i'm done with this big long blog post i'm gonna go read Acts and Romans, Cya all later,

Signed,
Chris, the almost 16 blogging dude who likes depressing words that start with the letter "D"




*"1, 2, 5!" "3, sir, 3!" "oh yes, 3!" from monty python and the holy grail.

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