I really love two things, Relient K and Lots of blog comments!

I checked my e-mail today and got like 6 blog comments! that makes me smile. thanks for commenting. i owe you a cookie. not really, until i figure out how to magically use the force to transports cookies through my blog i will be unable to give everyone who comments a cookie. but if you really want one and comment and then bug me every day for a month (bugging must be done in person) then i will give you a cookie. that's a promise. anyway, one thing i just want to say in response to people's suggestions to what i could do instead of college is this:i have very seriously considered doing some war college type thing, but i'm just not sure if that's where God is pointing me. i'm not saying that i couldn't benefit from war college. i loved battle school and that was as close to war college as i can get right now. i just don't know if it's what's needed. and also i just don't know if i can leave Estonia right now. or in 2 years. i don't know at all. anyway, Brent, i like your idea of starting an Estonian war college, only problem is...well, there's tons of problems. if it's in Estonia will it only be opened to Estonians? or will we import foreigners who don't speak Estonian? believe me, language is the key to ministry a large majority of the time (not always, but usually) how can you tell someone Jesus loves them if you don't know how to even say "Hi" in their language. Mida iganes. Lollid ideed on naljakas. ma tean et see on vale. ma räägin nagu loll inimene. tsau! and by the way, Brent, if i was in charge there would definitely be tons of yummy Estonian cheese.

so yeah, another thing i love is Relient K. I haven't listened to Relient K in a while. i don't know why. i just haven't. but lately i've started listening to them again and i've been like "WOW, THIS ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF!!" and i've started liking their softer more serious songs now, i didn't use to, i just liked their fun songs (may the horse be with you!). maybe that shows i'm more mature. who knows. anyway, one particular song grabbed my attaention, and since i've gotten into the habit of just copying and pasting lyrics rather than actually writing something original i think i'll do it again because i love Relint K's song "When i go down". If you can legally get copy of this song i would tottally suggest that you listen to it. it makes me smile. Anyway, enjoy!

Relient K

When i go down

I'll tell you flat out

it hurts so much to think of this

so from my thoughts I will exclude

this very thing that

I hate more than everything is

the way I'm powerless

to dictate my own moods

I've thrown away

so many things that could've been much more

and I just pray

my problems go away if they're ignored

but that's not the way it works

no that's not the way it works

when I go down

I go down hard

and I take everything I've learned

and teach myself some disregard

when I go down

it hurts to hit the bottom

and of the things that got me there

I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can

clear myself of this clouded mind

I'll watch myself settle down

into a place where

peace can search me out and find

that I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away

the hope I had in friendships

I've thrown away

so many things that could have been much more

I've thrown away

the secret to find an end to this

and I just pray

my problems go away if they're ignored

but that's not the way it works

no that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands

while my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me

reprimands me

then and there

I confess

I'll blame all this on my selfishness

yet you love me

and that consumes me

and I'll stand up again

and do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life

you touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light

as I exhale I hear your voice

and I answer you, though I heardly make a noise

and from my lips the words I choose to say

seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise

because I love you

oh God, I love you

and life is now worth livingif only because of you

and when they say I'm dead and gone

it won't be further from the truth

When I go down

I lift my eyes up to you

I won't look very far

cause you'll be there

with open arms

to lift me up again

to lift me up again

Isn't that song great? i keep trying to put spaces between the verses but for some reason blogger doesn't like that and it never works, let's hope it does this times. anyway, i'm done sharing that song i love, i'm gonna go take out the trash now. and i don't mean take my siblings for a walk, i mean take out the trash. Cya!